Pay it forward.

I'm flabbergasted today. My eyes are swollen from previous tears and I'm still in shock from hours prior. This site was not created to write or comment on anything about me personally, but this ties in to the purpose. I've always been a true believer of Karma, and that good things happen to good people. Today I can truly say that I encountered an angel in my life. Right now I life on Guam and I've been quietly stressed and frusterated trying to make ends meet to get back home to be closer to my family so that I can be around my sister and her kids and help out in any way that I can. Everyone back there knows I had made a decision to move back but Emily doesn't even know that her situation is the sole convincer for that choice. Based on a couple facebook status updates earlier today a lot of people are under the impression something terrible has happenned when in fact it is the extreme opposite.

Family is first, and there is just no other way to put it.

Someone who has requested to remain nameless and not be acknowledged was chatting with me today, and bought me a plane ticket home. This was not asked of this person, they just did it. I have not met this person in my life or even talked with them on the phone, ever. They were aware of my families situation and my growing frustration with not being back there, especially today since litearlly 13 people asked when I was coming, and I had no answer. This person has no idea what they have done for me today. This is the single nicest thing anyone has ever done for me in my entire life. I was instructed to check my email, and in it was an itinerary, my roomate saw me break out into uncontrollable tears. There still are good people out in the world. God bless them. This just doesn't happen.. and I'm still in shock. Because of this person I'm able to get back to the people who are the most important in my life and do what I need to do, and spend time with those who matter, and be there for the ones who really do need me right now to be a hell of a lot closer than where i'm at right now. What a heart. I don't know what I did to deserve this. Times are hard, and in order for me to afford the move I would need to sell my car, pay off the loan since my dad is the cosigner, and use whatever is hopefully profited still to buy the one way back to Wisconsin. I had posted an ad online on a couple places but couldn't even afford to place a classified ad in the paper. A couple people had showed minimal interest at best. I applied for a personal loan to consolidate my debts and to buy the ticket and just yesterday was declined. Needless to say i've been fucking stressed out and I dont want to be anywhere else but home.

A couple weeks ago a great person opened up thier home to me as a place to stay awhile getting ready for the move, so that I could save more, pay off things faster, and be more comfortable. They are another wonderful blessing and without her who knows if I would have had today happen. It's crazy how things can happen in life. I can't believe how blessed I am today. No words can even begin to express the level of thank yous that I want to yell out to the world. I was in a crying state earlier out of pure happiness and gratitude for these people in my life. I can only hope that someday somehow I am able to in some way do something to balance the good they are showing me in return.

I leave Guam on Saturday May 30th at 4:20am, and arrive in Chicago that evening. I'm still floored at todays events, and am going to cherish these final weeks of living in a place where I'm proud to say is my second home, and filled with some of the most kind-hearted people i've ever had the ability to meet in my lifetime. God bless this island and the people living and from here. Mark my words when I say I will be back to visit.

Many people have told me this little bit of advice today, and I too say to you to pay it forward. Someday it will make sense for you too.