Exam time

I don't like quizzes I dont like tests and I sure as hell don't like exams, but for whatever reason, my family is going through 2 months of continuous tests.

Our grandfather had a stroke last saturday morning.

I've been spending the better part of my time either at a hospital or with family.
Emily has came up a couple of times (in her ghetto van... har har) to spend time.

He's dying of a broken heart. God how I'd want to experience what they had together, it's my ultimate goal in life.

He's back in Monroe now at the place where him and my grandmother lived, and he is more than likely going to slowly slip away. As he sat by my grandma's side through her last years he made it clear that he didn't want any form of feeding or breathing tubes, no surgery, nothing. He wants to go when he is supposed to go. The priest came in Saturday afternoon to give last rites, and he cried when my grandmas name was mentioned, I've never seen that in my life. Heavy and raw, that was pure love. So intense.

My life is on hold right now as things unfold. Normally I'd pray for him to hang on but really I want him to be happy and pain free.

Em seems ok, and she stole another shirt when she was up here in Madison, pretty typical. Talked to her kids yesterday, they wanted me to take them to a park, but I dont think they realize i'm an hour away with no car... otherwise we'd be on our way.